Journeying through the desert land of infertility can be a daunting possibility. I certainly didn’t think much about infertility when my husband and I began trying to start our family. But, as each month passed and no positive pregnancy test appeared, the idea of being infertile became a horribly, heart-wrenching probability.
My struggle with infertility lasted many years. My questioning and doubting of God during this time lasted for years as well. While walking this un-chosen path, it occurred to me that my story is not unique. Many of you may also be dealing with a diagnosis of infertility. You may also be wondering where God is during this most difficult time and why He is leaving your prayers unanswered.
I understand. I have been where you are. While silently struggling with my infertility, I realized that I was not alone. Once I began to talk to friends about my heart-break, I found many listening ears and open arms. I had an overwhelming desire to share the story of my journey with others. I share not only to empathize but to encourage.
The years I spent hoping to have a child, praying to be pregnant, were some of the darkest spiritual years I have ever experienced. I know that our doctors look after our physical state and even our mental state but I felt that my spiritual state was not catered to. I had many supportive friends who pledged to pray alongside me but they were able to get pregnant. Many of them did while I remained childless! I let my despair reign in my life for far too long and I do not want that for you. I hope that you will see yourself in the stories that I share and be encouraged. God is with you during this trial in your life. Know that you are not alone. And, if you want to connect to swap stories or ask me any questions, please just email me.
One of my favourite verses became such a struggle to accept as truth but I share it with you now knowing and believing each word to be complete truth:
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
May you find hope in the future God has in store for you!